Me and my bump

Isn't a bump what everyone wants? I hear it so many times now with the celebrity "bump watch". My bump is not making me happy. As every hour goes by I am growing more worried. My ultrasound was yesterday at 5w5d. I was reassured before they even started the scan that all they were looking for was "how many and where". They didn't expect to see anything else. The APRN was in with the u/s tech to point out on the screen what I was looking at. Pretty early into the ultrasound the APRN says to the tech "are you seeing that bump?" Oh, no, please....let this be just a normal boring early ultrasound. I get the "it's probably nothing, we'll know more what we are looking at during the next ultrasound" speech. So I have to wait until next Friday the 20th.

So in the meantime, I check out my office notes for the ultrasound (because I have access to my own medical record), and get an official name for what they were seeing - a chorionic bump. In the notes it also says that there is not definite yoke sac or fetal pole, but from what I understand it can still be a little early to see that - am I wrong? The office note said that the gestational sac may just be fluid....

Just to add to my distress I decided to google "chorionic bump" and I came across an abstract from research that my clinic was involved in, including my specific RE. Here is the name of the article: A First-Trimester Pregnancy Sonographic Finding Associated With a Guarded Prognosis. Well THAT doesn't sound good. Here are some nuggets of information from the article:

Results. The difference in outcomes between the patients with bumps and the healthy control subjects was statistically significant (7 live births versus 13 live births; P < .03), but the difference in outcomes between the patients with bumps and infertility control subjects was not statistically significant (7 live births versus 11 live births; P = .1). Conclusions. The finding of a chorionic bump on the first-trimester sonogram is associated with a guarded prognosis for the early pregnancy (live birth rate <50%);>

So now I have THAT rattling around in my head. I'm going to have to keep myself extremely busy between now and next Friday, otherwise I will go out of my mind. I keep on trying to reassure myself that fluid would not cause the rise in hCG that I have. I've been told that with the rise in my betas it is a good indication of viable pregnancy....so that can't JUST be fluid, can it? C thinks that we got too excited too fast about the pregnancy. I know that this is all completely out of our hands now, there is nothing that I can do to change the outcome. I suppose it is back to just a waiting game. A game that I have been playing for a very long time, but I still suck.